diary..if my beloved among us..

..

i love this song so much..

so wonderful

so meaningful

touched my heart deeply

make my tears running down

i know he was there

..i never meet him yet

wish him coming over here

with me ..

with us..

my beloved one..

i missing you a lot

missing you so much

my diary..His wisdom

all alone in quiet and calm darkest night..
my heart goes to you my beloved..kamilia,shahmie and ayman..
~When you meet adversity, Allah teaches you about the value of patience. ..
    When you see the good, Allah taught you the meaning of gratitude. ..
Nothing is predestined without task, and there is nothing granted without something comes from it .. ~
~Remember my dearest ..that Allah taught you all the time and everywhere..
 as an example and a lesson in every moment of life .. 
How beautiful and great such plan of Allah..
step your walk and path through with His wonderful wisdom ...
you not all alone~

Allah is everywhere

~she stressed her feelings to me..
mama i really couldnt understand why adult always say nothing when they made a mistake and why they never look their self before pointed to the kids..can you adult put yourself in our shoes..feels for us


mama..my teacher said: Allah can see and hear everything you do. But your concern is if the people can.

she asked me..do you know what is mean mama? 


~It means that God is hearing and seeing everything, including what is in the deep recesses of our heart and even what we try to hide from ourselves. And yet this does not concern us. We are only concerned about what people hear and see and know. On the other side, of good that we do, Allah sees all of it. But we are still concerned with people also seeing it.

my diary..2

indahnya kata2 penyair ini Abu Firas al-‘Amiri yang dikenali dengan Majd al-‘Arab:ingin mama kongsikan dengan anak2 mama..moga kalian mengerti..

“Berpisahlah, nescaya kau dapati ganti orang yang kau tinggalkan. Mengembaralah di bumi, nescaya kau temui petunjuk dalam perjalanan itu. Singa jika tidak meninggalkan hutannya, tidak akan garang. Anak panah jika tidak meninggalkan busarnya tidak akan mengena sasaran”. (Fawat al-Fawayat 3/87, Beirut: Dar al-Sadir).

pesan mama buat anak2 mama yang tersayang:
 ya, pergi wahai diri, mencari dan meneliti segala rahsia ilahi di alam ini..
luaskan pandanganmu supaya engkau dapat lihat sesuatu dari sudut yang beribu.. 
kembaralah nescaya engkau akan bertemu dengan sesuatu yang baru.. tentang manusia, dunia dan segala berita..
bawalah ia sebagai obor peringatan buat diri dan teman.. berjalanlah mendapatkan catatan untuk masa hadapan.. mungkin ia akan lebih aman dari diari semalam.. 
himpunkan segala kenangan yang indah dan gundah..
bawalah sebagai bekalan dalam merempuh suatu perjalanan yang mungkin sunyi dan kembara yang mungkin sepi..
kutiplah segala madu dan penawar untuk luka dan calar..
temuilah apa yang kau idamkan... mungkin ia bekalan baru buat suatu permusafiran yang engkau pun tidak tahu..

Diary ..dream

...something to share with my beloved shahmie,kamilian and aiman

Once a man saw in his dream, that a lion was chasing him. The man ran to a tree, climbed on to it and sat on a branch. He looked down and saw that the lion was still there waiting for him. The man then looked to his side where the branch he was sitting on was attached to the tree and saw that two rats were circling around and eating the branch. One rat was black and the other one was white. The branch will fall on the ground very soon. The man then looked below again with fear and discovered that a big black snake had come and settled directly under him. The snake opened its mouth right under the man so that he will fall into it. The man then looked up to see if there was anything that he could hold on to. He saw another branch with a honeycomb. Drops of honey were falling from it. The man wanted to taste one of the drops. So, he put his tongue out and tasted one of the falling drops of honey. The honey was amazing in taste. So, he wanted to taste another drop and then another and as a result, he got lost into the sweetness of the honey. He forgot about the two rats eating his branch away, the lion on the ground and the snake that is sitting right under him. Suddenly when the branch broke he remembered all the dangers woke up from his sleep.

Since this was an unique dream, the man went to a pious scholar of Islam to know its meaning. The scholar said "The lion you saw is your death. It always chases you and goes where ever you go. The two rats, one black and one white, are the night and the day. Black one is the night and the white one is the day. They circle around, coming one after another, to eat your time as they take you closer to death. The big black snake with a dark mouth is your grave. It's there, just waiting for you to fall into it. The honeycomb is this world and the sweet drops of honey are the luxuries of this world. We like to taste a little of the luxuries of this world and it's very sweet. Then we want to taste little more and then more. Meanwhile, we get lost into it and we forget about our time, we forget about our death and we forget about our grave."

my diary..

Saat mengenangmu
air mata bercucuran bagai hujan
engkau ibarat beburung pagi
yang singgah bertenggek
di ranting hati
engkau mengepak pergi
bersama senja menutup hari.

Sedang aku
bagai pengemis buta
tenggelam dalam gelita
mohon dipimpin
dikasih
d
a
n
dicinta...


'terima kasih sahabat..'

true friends..

...longing..
remember this.... my sweet Friend:.. TIME and DISTANCE are IMPORTANT between FRIENDS, When a friend is IN YOUR HEART, ( what I mean is TRUE FRIEND) they remain there forever... I may be BUSY or my work demands my time BUT I assure you, YOU are always in my HEART. (promise) Because with a friend like you even I haven't seen or met you yet make my life worth living for. I always thought that loving a special friend like you is the greatest feeling, we lose people we love but we never LOSE TRUE FRIENDS

good night

 

What strength I had has all been spent..
My get up and go got up and went..
Tired as heck, my eyes are red..
To all good night. I'm off to bed...
sweet dreams you all..

my heart is calling out

Make Me Strong

Dear Rabb keep me moving forward..
keep me strong in everything matters facing me..
do not leave me alone..
show me right from wrong..
give me light make me strong
i know the road is long
make me strong
sometimes its just gets too much
i feel that i've lost touch
i know i will get tough after been through this end

kita hadir di sini

puisi dari sahabat buatku...

Kita hadir di sini
ibarat burung-burung berterbangan
singgah dan hinggap di muka kaca
menyusun baris di atas garis
bersiul tanpa suara
tiap ketika
dari embun berkaca
hingga pucuk malam berbunga
menjelajah minda
mengukir cerita madah pujangga
satu persatu berita terbaru
mewarnai cermin bisu
bertaut tali persahabatan
tertambat erat pada tiang persaudaraan.
Kita hadir di sini
sebagai angin sepoi-sepoi bahasa
ramah menyapa
lembut terasa mengulas bicara.
Kita hadir di sini
bukan sebagai ribut taufan
memusnah kesopanan
mengundang kehancuran
di laman ini
kita hadir sebagai merak jinak
mematuk-matuk papan key-board
menabur bulu-bulu emas
dan di sini
aku tidak akan berhenti
membakar unggun puisi
dari kamar hatiku yang sepi.

Rosnani Ahmad
07.09.2011.

make me strong

it has been a long time now..but its still in my mind..i never know why..
ya Rabb..i know the road is so long..i know the way you test me is to show your Love and to reminds me..i know You hear my call every minute of the day..i know You listen of my heartfelt..i know and i never doubt of You my lord..please ya Rabb make me strong..keep me strong ..i believe in faith of You

Eid al-Mubarak wishes

my lovely daughter (Nawrah Afnan Kamilia binti Hj Shahidi) has wrote lovely wishes to everyone she loves in the world..
" happy Eid for us all..to anyone who is short or tall..
the test we passed given from Allah in the month of Ramadhan special..
ketupat..lemang and rendang..its so yummy and tasty foods...
but we must also not forget....hari raya prayers too..
wearing colourful clothes..
 with beautiful beads and colourful cards..
may Allah accept our prayer, our deeds, and our fast
thank to Him for giving us a happy day that lasts