early summer in Villamora...

di suatu petang nan syahdu..

I close my eyes and I am in Villamora..
hot sand..fine as flour
between my toes..an ice cold coca cola
in my hand..
the music of the sea wise waves..
whispering the secret of happiness
'no problems..life is sweet as rich baklava..'
....the kids cries wailing like a siren..
hungry and tired a dirty pants..
their eyes tight shut..
red-faced and
straining..veins like tiny snakes
climbing their neck...
...oh my God..
I am in brynglass instead..

emmm..bermimpi rupanya aku..

To my dearest kids..

..renungan buat permata hatiku...

Life Is Golden Gift 

There was a blind girl who hated herself
just because she's blind.
She hated everyone, except her loving boyfriend.
He's always there for her.
She said that if she could only see the world,
she would marry her boyfriend.
One day, someone donated a pair of eyes to her
and then she can see everything, including her boyfriend.
Her boyfriend asked her, "now that you can see the world,
will you marry me?" The girl was shocked when she saw
that her boyfriend is blind too, and refused to marry him.
Her boyfriend walked away in tears,
and later wrote a letter to her saying.
"Just take care of my eyes dear." 
This is how human brain changes when the status changed.
Only few remember what life was before,
and who's always been there
even in the most painful situations.

















My sweetheart...
Today before you think of saying an unkind word
Think of someone who can't speak.
Before you think of pointing the finger
or condemning another
remember that not one of us
are without sin and we all answer to one maker.
Before you complain about
the taste of your food
Think of someone who has nothing to eat.
Today before you complain about life
Think of someone who went too early to heaven.
Before you argue about your dirty house,
someone didn't clean or sweep
Think of the people who are living in the streets.
Before whining about the distance you drive
Think of someone who walks
the same distance with their feet.
And when you are tired
and complain about your job
think of the unemployed,
the disabled and
those who wished they had your job.
And when depressing thoughts seem to get you down -
Put a smile on your face and
thank God you're alive and still around. 

My sweetie… 

















Life is a gift,
live it,
enjoy it,
celebrate it,
and fulfill its purpose wholeheartedly.........

My baby… 

Life is a GIFT and
we must be thankful to Allah
Never blame any DAY in your LIFE.
Good days give you "HAPPINESS", 
Bad Days gives you "EXPERIENCE",
Worst Days gives you "A LESSON".


My dearest… 

All are essential for life....
"Your life is God's gift to you...
What you do for others is your gift to God"
The best and most beautiful things
cannot be seen or touched…
they must be felt with the heart.
Happiness always looks small
when you hold it in your hands...
But when you learn to share it..
you will realize how big and precious it is!!

best friend forever...

Assalamualaykum
semoga Allah memberi kebaikan
keberkatan
kekuatan
kemudahan untuk kita...
Amin.

Menerima dan membaca e-mail dari seorang sahabat..
terasa sebak sebentar kerana hakikatnya begitulah...
Seorang sahabat sentiasa di situ, di hati…
Masa ..jarak dan tuntutan tugas memang membataskan..
tetapi bukan alasan.
Kalau lama menyepi, itu bukan tanda lupa, di hati tetap ada...

To all my friends and colleagues, ...may Allah bless you all..

Everyone always tells their friends they'll be "Friends Forever,"

but How Often does that last? You might be best friends one year,

pretty good friends then next, don't talk often the next year,

and don't want to talk the year after that!

So, I just wanted to say, even if I never talk to you again in my life,

you are special to me and you have made a difference in my life,

I look up to you, respect you, and truely cherish you.

Let old friends know you haven't forgotten them,

and tell new friends you never will.

Remember, everyone needs a friend.

Someday you might feel like you have no friends at all,

but just remember this and take comfort in knowing

somebody out there cares about you and always will.

life is never ending struggle..

Assalamualaykum..

seminggu tak menjengah..
menerima perkhabaran duka dari malaysia..
inalillah wa inna ilaihi rajiuun
moga Allah mencucuri rahmat keatasnya..Amin..insyaAllah.




my head buzzing like a swarm of bees..
...getting the kids to school..
the meeting at three..
the sink is blocked..
the shopping to do..
letters to post..
shoes from the 'sale'..
a thesis to write..
an email to send..
ahh...i'm thinking about my tea time...
after all..

Untuk hari esok, aku pohon kekuatan, ketabahan untuk terus berjuang untuk hidup, agar aku dapat terus memberi...dan aku pinta agar hidayah yang datang tidak pergi..
menemani kelana di daerah sementara..
insyaAllah

Ya Allah, i asked for Your help, huda, wa taufiq in this way of Yours. Lead us Ya Allah to Your mardhatillah.

rindu..

Jika kejahatan dibalas dengan kejahatan - itu adalah dendam.
Jika kebaikan dibalas dengan kebaikan - itulah tanda ketinggian budi.
Jika kebaikan dibalas dengan kejahatan - itu adalah kezaliman.
Tetapi jika kejahatan dibalas dengan kebaikan-
itulah buktinya perkerti mulia lagi terpuji. Sungguh sedikit manusia yang memahami.
Lebih sedikit manusia yang memahami dan mengamalkan.
Lebih sedikit lagi manusia yang telah memahami, mengamalkan dan ikhlas.
Terlebih sedikit lagi manusia yang telah memahami,
mengamalkan dan ikhlas serta sampai ke tujuan."

-AsSyahid Imam Hassan al-Banna

Indah kan kata2 tu, terkesan sungguh aku.
Kadang-kadang rasa susah sungguh utk berakhlaq seindah rasulullah saw,
kejahatan dibalasnya dengan kebaikan.
Aku begitu lemah, mudah sekali terguris dan begitu berkira dalam hal-hal remeh temeh. Macam mana untuk mendidik hati supaya subur dengan iman dan sabar?

Fahamilah umie,
setiap luka adalah gerhana,
sedikit masa lagi nur akan muncul.

Yakinlah,
bahawa yang tiba,
setiap kali bulan melangkahi ufuk,
adalah suria yang menguntum senyum,
pada manisnya IMAN dan SABAR.


..pagi semalam, aku, hubby and my kids pergi ke carboot sales.. tempat aku bershoping untuk mencari keperluan diri..dan anak2 tersayang..begitulah hidup di bumi England..segala-galanya mahal..tapi kata teman2 ku yang dah balik.. Malaysiapun apa kurangnya…

Hmm, rindu sungguh pd family di Malaysia. seringkali teringat pada family yang ditinggalkan, terbayang wajah2 tersayang..mak, ayah dan adik2.. air mataku bergenang.., rindu betul!

ala alahaai..

pada ketika ini tetiba aku teringat suamiku bercerita tentang seorang temannya yang hanya berhubung via 'alam cyber'..Menurutnya temannya ini sering menghantar pesanan dan peringatan khusus buat 'diri yang leka'..

Antara pesanannya yang sering bermain di ingatanku....

''Sesekali jadilah kawan yang mendengar dari yang hanya bercerita.
Ambillah masa untuk memahami hati dan perasaan kawan,
Kerana dia juga seorang manusia; dia juga ada rasa takut,
ada rasa bimbang, sedih dan kecewa. Dia juga ada kelemahan
dan Dia juga perlukan kawan sebagai kekuatan.
Jadilah kita kawannya itu.
Kita selalu melihat dia ketawa, tetapi
mungkin sebenarnya dia tidak setabah yang kita sangka.
Disebalik senyumannya itu,
mungkin banyak cerita sedih yang ingin diluahkan,
disebalik kesenangannya, mungkin tersimpan
seribu kekalutan, kita tidak tahu..
tetapi jika kita cuba jadi sahabat seperti dia,
mungkin kita akan tahu.
Renungilah.."
tika dan di saat ini aku masih terus dibayangi makna disebalik pesanan ini
apakah aku seorang sahabat 'pendengar' kepada teman-temanku
atau,
pesanan ini yang sebenarnya ingin kutujukan buat teman-teman tersayang
hhmmh..

temanku....

bingkisan dari seorang sahabat lama..

...a circle of friendship
don't walk in front of me, I may not follow
don't walk behind me, I may not lead
walk beside me and be my friends forever


-ShidahUKM-