somewhere in june

so often in my struggle to live at ease with myself I have been frightened to look within and know my true self..
...i always have thought myself such a worthless person instead of reverencing myself, faults and virtues..

because of Allah wills it...
the sheer beauty of this month of June helps heal any unhappiness that I feel...
it really does..
it comes in perfect days..chambery..lyon..heathrow..jakarta..kuching..kuala terengganu..
kids, honey and I have been in a beauty month..
being a part somewhere
and the next day ..
together like a flock of birds..

oh..what is so amazing as a day in june..
my heart is so full that a drop overfills it..
raining snowing drop from the sky
raining snowing drop into the ground
i count 1..2..3..wet and smile

its really does
oh..it comes in perfect day..
..thanks to You..the Most Greatness..the Most Merciful
this enough for us now that leaves are green..

birthday wishes from someone special..

titipan kasih darinya buatku

Dear sweetheart....

" Your birthday card
has to be different
It has to be one
that says...

"You're one of
the most special people in my life..."

Sayangku ,Umie..
moga..bertambahnya usiamu dan kita sekeluarga
maka bertambahlah kasih sayang
kita semua
bersama selamanya

Umie...
This is from my heart
to wish you
a birthday filled
with wishes come true.

Di hari yang indah ini,
abang ucapkan dengan penuh rasa sayang dan rindu..

"Happy Birthday and You Mean Everything to Me"

"May Allah bless you and our family, always"

Salam sayang
ikhlas buat
isteriku...
abang
july2009

lovely wishes ..on 4thJuly

...setulus kasih bersama doa kupanjatkan mengiringi hening pagi 4th July 2009..
alhamdulillah dengan izinNya ..
hari ini aku melewati lagi usia kelana di bumiNya..moga ketaqwaan dan keimananku bertambah seiring dengan bertambahnya usiaku..
doaku juga moga perjalanan yang kulalui dahulu tidak sia- sia di sisiNya..
aku berdoa lagi ..moga hari-hari yang akan kutempuhi nanti sentiasa di dalam rahmat dan redhaNya..
tidak ku lupa..moga kebahagiaan aku bersama suami tercinta dan anak-anak tersayang kekal ..bahagia..tenang dan indah hingga akhir hayatku..
seterusnya ..doa tulus kupanjatkan buat kedua ayahanda dan bonda yang telah melahir ..mendidik ..dan tanpa jemu mengirim doa buatku..moga mereka sentiasa di dalam lindungan yang Maha Esa..
doaku juga buat semua insan yang menyayangi dan mengasihi diri ini sebagai adik..kakak..menantu..anak murid..sahabat dan teman..moga kalian juga sentiasa didalam rahmatNya..
..amin ya rabb..

chamberry..camping..

yesterday..today..and for a few days after tomorrow..
i really miss them...
i miss my honey..
i miss my sweet hearts..
i miss their voice..
i miss their laughing..
i miss their smiling..
i miss their hugging..

..dearest honey..
how are you down there..
being a far part.. keep me thinking about you..
how is it in Chamberry..
how is your presentation..
how is your trip..from Lyon to tiny city..
emm...wondering you in a small town in France..
do you have a great time being there..
praying for you..may Allah showering you with his bless always..

..dearest sweet hearts..
English camp take you from me away..
i know..the trip is what are you waiting since we've being here..
its very hard to let you go ..
but i realize sometimes you need some space for you to see the world ..
as you told me that you need to observe the earth with your deep heart..
you want to be a good khalif as you always recite in assembly morning..
lastly but not least ..as i 've always remind you in everything you do ..
remember Allah always in your side..
and..mama and papa always be in your heart..
wish you have fun and joy with your team..

limpahan syukur..

tak mampu ku catatkan di sini ..
namun semalam yang ditinggalkan tidakkan kulupakan sepanjang hayatku..

segalanya berlaku begitu pantas..ia meluncur laju di depan aku dan suamiku..
bersama bunyi dentuman-dentuman yang begitu kuat ..terus ku berkata..abang..anak kita bang..dan yang terlintas di kepalaku saat itu hanyalah berdoa..doaku tanpa putus..
ya Allah selamatkanlah anak2 ku..ya Allah selamatkanlah anak-anakku..
saat suamiku berlari pantas ..sedang aku terasa lemah dan tak bermaya untuk bergerak..
perlahan-lahan ku menapak ke sana ...
Alhamdulillah ..alhamdulillah..alhamdulillah..subhanallah
hanya itu yang mampu kulafazkan sambil memeluk mereka
syukur pada mu ya Allah kerana menyelamatkan anak-anakku dari tragedi tersebut....

remarks..

what should i write here..
do you have some ideas for me..
ohh malasnya nak tulis..
bercampur dengan kebizian yang tak pernah abis...
nantilah bila aku rajin, aku tulislah
sambil2 tu layanlah bryan adam's song ni
layannnn

happy mother's day

special wishes from my heart

...to my beloved mum..

and

..to all the mothers in the world

my mum is a biggest gifted from Allah to me..
she is my best friend ..
she may keep my secret..
her kindness and caring ..
her love and sharing..is deeper than ocean..

when I fall she help me up and get me on my way again
sometimes we laugh and cry..
sometimes I lied to her
sometimes I hiding my honest..because of some reason
but she never give up..
and indeed..I never need to beg my mother's love..

mum...this is for you the one who I love far more than the words can say..
I will love you forever and ever ..
there is none in the world I could trade you ..
I love you so much