di pinggiran rindu...

Alhamdulillah...
selaut syukur padaMu Illahi atas kurniaanMu..
aku tahu sesungguhnya Engkau Maha Mendengar 
setiap bicaraku..
setiap madah rinduku..
dan..
semalam..
sebelum berakhirnya lembaran lama..
Engkau hadiahkan aku dengan kunjungan'tetamu' yang amat kurindu..
di waktu itu..hanya berbicara dan mendengar suara kasihnya di hujung talian
namun..
semalam..
sebelum berakhirnya lembaran lama..
..terima kasih Illahi atas kesempatan itu..
....terima kasih 'emak T' kerana sudi menziarahi ku..
..terima kasih 'emak T' kerana masih menyayangiku ..
doaku moga ukhuwah dan kasihku padamu tiada akhir
doaku moga kasih dan rindumu jua tiada penghujung
buatku dan permata hatiku..
sesungguhnya 
kasihku padamu.. 
jua kasihku pada bonda dan ayahandaku ..
terlalu agung!

2012..have the best ever insyaAllah

..how to comfort myself....


Imagine all the mercy God has given you in your life.

All the times He has saved you from yourself. 


All the times we insist on degrading ourselves, yet He honors


 us instead.

We insist on poisoning our hearts, but He takes away the


 poison and replaces it with medicine.

Now imagine this. All of that mercy He has shown you, and all


 of the mercy spread throught the whole world for all time, is


 only 1 part of 100.


 And the rest is saved for the Day of Judgement. Intense. 


Allahu Akbar

اجمل دعاء في العالم

اجمل دعاء في العالم

| "Verily, you are an angel" | إنتِ ملاك

Detik Terakhir Wardina Safiyyah @ Malaysia Hari Ini 2011

R. Black - It's Jumuah "Friday" (Raef Cover)

message to my love..

very beautiful message to my dearest kids..mama have read this morning this lovely message from Yasmin and i find it such an ispiration to you..

 

"We must study the stars, the trees, the snow-capped mountains in order to read the message behind them. Because if we do not, we are like the one who finds a message inside a beautifully decorated bottle, yet becomes so enamored by the bottle, that he never even opens the message.

But what is that message, stuck inside the intensity of stars? There is a sign— but a sign of what? These signs are... a pointer to Him, to His greatness, His majesty, His beauty. A pointer to His might and His power. Study, reflect, absorb the beauty and majesty of what’s created—but don’t stop there. Don’t lose yourself in beauty. Look beyond it and consider that if the creation is that majestic, that great, that beautiful, how majestic and great and beautiful must be the Creator."

“Indeed, in the creation of the heavens and the earth and the alternation of the night and the day are signs for those of understanding.”

“(Those) who remember Allah while standing or sitting or [lying] on their sides and give thought to the creation of the heavens and the earth, [saying], “Our Lord, You have not created all of this without a purpose. Exalted is You [above such a thing]; then protect us from the punishment of the Fire.” (3:190-191)

thanks so much

no card to give..no sweet flowers to send ..no graphic design to forward just a loving heart saying 

"may Allah swt bless you and kids"..

thanks so much my dearest friend for sending this lovely blossoms flowers to me..so beautiful...

thinking..

,,

Today I was thinking about all the mistakes I have made in 

my life,

 then I saw this:

 "I make my hope in you, my Lord, a stairway. 

My sins intimidate me with their greatness.

 But, when I compare them with your mercy, your mercy is

 greater!" by Imam al-Shaf'i

KITA BANYAK FIKIR DUNIA- DATO DR HARUN DIN

menghitung diri..

mengapa perlu menyalahkan mereka
mengapa perlu menyisihkan mereka
mengapa perlu mengherdik mereka
mengapa perlu melukakan mereka
...hanya kerana mereka belum dewasa..


.......lantas tiada ruang untuk melihat diri kita??
kesilapan dan kekhilafan diri kita??


.....sabda baginda 'generasimu dibentuk oleh warismu....


berilah ruang buat mereka
hulurkan kasih sayang kita buat mereka
ikhlaskan setulus hati kita buat mereka
selamilah hati dan jiwa mereka
kerana di akhirnya nanti ..padaNya jua pelindung mereka

rinduku indah..

KERINDUANKU
Karya: Rosnani Ahmad

Aku sering merindui
desaku yang damaimenatap deru sungai
tempat aku bersantai
mandi bersama rakan
berkelah nasi cabai
dan ulam petai.

Aku sering merindui
zaman manis dahulu
bermain lumpur
bermandi hujan
membina benteng tanah
membentuk kolam ikan
mengepung anak haruan.

Aku sering merindui
kemesraan rakan
tiada batasan
ramah mesra saudara –mara
manis wajah jiran tetangga
bertegur sapa.

Segala yang dirindui
tak mungkin kembali
mereka yang disayangi
telah lama pergi
rumah pusaka diselimuti sepi
masa lalu dan masa kini
terpisah oleh keakuan diri.

Tanggal:19.12.2011

 —

Oley!!

24 Jam Dosa di Facebook

moments in cambodia..

Broken Angel

lovely song indeed

Great birthday to my little one 121211

he asked me..mama have you forgotten my birthday?i said why should I my dear??

I cant believe that my little one is ten today..

what a lovely to celebrate my wonderful boy

I love you more then you will ever know, my little baby , 

more then you will ever ever know. 

                                                     Happy happy birthday my love!!!!
                                                            may Allah bless  you all

Mad World - Gary Jules

All around me are familiar faces
Worn out places, worn out faces
Bright and early for the daily races
Going nowhere, going nowhere

Their tears are filling up their glasses
No expression, no expression
Hide my head
I wanna drown my sorrow
No tomorrow, no tomorrow

And I find it kind of funny, I find it kind of sad
The dreams in which I'm dying are the best I've ever had
I find it hard to tell you, I find it hard to take
When people run in circles its a very, very
Mad world, mad world

Children waiting for the day they feel good
Happy birthday, happy birthday
And I feel the way that every child should
Sit and listen, sit and listen

Went to school and I was very nervous
No one knew me, no one knew me
Hello teacher tell me, what's my lesson?
Look right through me, look right through me

And I find it kind of funny, I find it kind of sad
The dreams in which I'm dying are the best I've ever had
I find it hard to tell you, I find it hard to take
When people run in circles its a very, very
Mad world, mad world, enlarging your world
Mad world

a moment in cambodia

monument di belakang dipenuhi dgn skull mangsa kekejaman Polpot..very cruel

my letter..

Jangan difikir derita akan berpanjangan, kelak akan membawa putus asa pada Tuhan, ingatlah biasanya kabus tak berpanjangan, setelah kabus berlalu, .......PASTI CERAH KEMBALI!

Dear..

It is hard to say the things I want to say sometimes ..and i was staring on my laptop and wondering what would I express how i feel all this while ..and finally i will find that this letter is a patch of what i feel on those moments..

It is really painful to let it goes...Well, that only applies to things I am really passionate about and have loved and cared for a long time. I sure won't have problem saying goodbye to anything that caused inconvenience to me, would I? I'm about to embark on a departure from something very dear to my heart. It hurts me like mad when I made the decision but it's for the greater good. I don't know what lies ahead, but the moment the decision was done, I felt great but sad too…

Sometimes, it comes a point in our lives when we have to think what we are doing and where we are heading. When happiness fades, we need to look for new beginnings. When love dies, we need to step away and carve out the dead feelings…

I know it is difficult to let this loves depart from my deepest heart... We have been through so much together that it hurts just recalling a tiny fraction of the time we spent as a couple. We have had our fair share of love and happiness. Let that be the memories that will stay with us as we go our separate ways. Continuing on will only leave us with more bitter recollections that will overwhelm the happier shades that we once shared. That's simply because true happy moments will never be possible from now on when the magical feeling has long gone. Perhaps you will find that I'm trying to justify my decision to move on. Maybe I'm and for that I'm truly sorry.

But I strongly believe that I deserve someone appreciate who I am. Someone who can love and cherish me the way a lover should rather than depending on crumbs from a dying feeling which is better left buried. If I can't feel it in my heart, neither can I give you what you rightly deserve. That being the case, let us go and seek our own rainbows, which I'm sure will appear when the time is right.

To be candid for myself ..I really hope your happy with your life ..I hope you see what you have done..I hope you see that this is all wrong.. should you realize that you and I are not perfect..indeed  nobody is perfect but I know every one of us want to be perfect so let us learn from our weakness instead of being hurting of each other feeling..you will never see that  my smile was rehearsed..I hope I get to tell you this: 'I wish I never knew you because of you....I wish I didnt exist..

Ben Bradshaw

Belacan & Paku

friendship never ends

Dr Reda Bedeir

sering lupa..

Kematian adalah kepastian yang tidak boleh diubah.. 

Di tangan manusia ikhtiar untuk menentukan bentuknya. 

Bakti dan jasa adalah sedekah jariah selain infaq harta dan doa anak soleh. 

Hari-hari yang berlalu menghampirkan diriku kepada kematian, moga Allah kurniakan semangat untuk terus menabur jasa dan bakti...moga ada ihsan dariNya buat diriku yang sering lupa..

doaku

اللَهُمَّ إِنِّي أَسْأَلُكَ نَـفْسـاً بِكَ مُطْمَئِنَّـةً ، تُؤْمِنُ بِلِقَائِكَ، وَتَرْضَى بِقَضَـائِكَ ، وَ تَقْنَعُ بِعَطَائِكَ*

Ya Allah, sesungguhnya aku memohon kepada-Mu jiwa yang tenang, beriman bertemu dengan-Mu, ridha terhadap segala ketentuan-Mu dan menerima sepenuhnya pemberian-Mu.

SEPI

terima kasih sahabat atas kiriman istimewa darimu buatku

terima kasih juga kerana mengingati diriku

tiap bingkisan karyamu sering manjadi temanku

pada Illahi kupanjatkan kesyukuran atas persahabatan kita...

 

 
Dunia kembali sepi
bila tiada lagi
terlukis gambaran rindu
bait-bait syahdu
dari jeritan kalbu.

Jiwa kembali kosong
tasik hati berkocak
digoncang badai kehidupan
terpamer gelora di wajah
kusam dan muram.

Warna alam kian kelam
cahaya rambulan dilindung awan
hari muka berdepan kegelapan
dedaun harapan jatuh berguguran
diri dibuai mimpi tak kesudahan 

                                                                                    by Rosnani Ahmad

Teresa Teng - The Moon Represents My Heart

i love you.. mom

His perfect ways..

Sometimes when you pray for something

 ALLAH answers in a way that is beyond your understanding

you have no idea why you are going through this 

but it turns out to be exactly what you asked for 

only it makes you stronger and wiser...

It is in His perfect timing and His perfect way always

may Allah swt bless us

always in my heart..

Blessed is your face
Blessed is your name
My beloved
Blessed is your smile
Which makes my soul want to fly
... My beloved
All the nights
And all the times
That you cared for me
“your mother, your mother, your mother”
Is the saying of your Prophet
In my heart, in my dreams
You are always with me mother

temporal happiness..

Hidupkanlah dunia yang sementara ini untuk menjana manfaat di akhirat yang kekal selama-lamanya...

"Dan peliharalah dirimu dari (adzab yang terjadi pada) hari yang pada waktu itu kamu semua dikembalikan kepada Allah. Kemudian masing-masing diri diberi balasan yang sempurna terhadap apa yang telah dikerjakannya, sedang mereka sedikit pun tidak dianiaya (dirugikan)."[Al-Baqarah ayat 281]

Merah cinta kita

Karya: Rosnani Ahmad

Merah cintamu
tiba-tiba menjadi ungu
... direnggut deru
desau ombak Tanjung Rhu

Merah cintaku
kini terdampar lesu
meniti waktu
di kepulauan rindu.

Tanggal: 01.12.2011

prayer on Islamic new year..1433H

 notes from Syeikh Mutawalli..

تحية اجلال وتقدير للشعب المصرى العظيم الذى اثبت للعالم تحضره واستحقاقه

للديموقراطية وانه مؤهل لها وليس كما ادعى البعض ونحمد الله عز وجل على نعمة

الحرية وندعوه سبحانه كما اتم نعمته علينا ان يتمها على المسلمين فى كل مكان وفى 

سوريا واليمن وسائر بلاد لاسلام

thank you

Dear Most Merciful Allah swt, 

I wanna take a minute not to ask for anything from You,

but simply to say thank You for all I have.

He gives you what you need

this morning i've got a message from AK:


In Life, GOD Doesn't Give You The People You Want.
Instead, He Gives You The People You Need -
To Teach You, To Hurt You, To Love you,
And To Make You Exactly The Way You're Meant To Be.


May Your Life Be Filled With Love, Peace And Blessing At The Times. (Amen)
Have A Good Day

this day..

This is a moment in which I feel very sure of who I am, very accepted, very peaceful, happy with the things i have done in my life...
something i felt on those moments..when every day is like wanting to dial a number and no one answers. getting to a place and think..i'm gonna text him..but there's no one to send the message to..the fact that he's not here psychically..that's what's painful..its something i am working on not day by day or hour by hour but minute by minute ..i am trying to be stronger about this every day..
But ..this day i left everything behind..
me and him and our heart broken..and i lock the door ..you and i have our own journey but strive on our own ways..
pretty sure..our life is change but not memory..never look the past because you not live there anymore..
may Allah swt shower us with his blessing..

111111..beautiful day for my Dad

a beautiful day for my Dad.. 

this day is not special day only to me, 

but to all my family members and those people 

whose lives you have touched with your kindness and generosity..

it's hard for me to say the things i want to say sometimes

 but you know Dad 

I feel so blessed to have you as my Dad. 

May Allah always pour love.. good health and happiness on you..

you're everything for us indeed..

Jum'ah Mubarakah and Happy Birthday AYAH..

I Love You

As humans we seem to search for significance in things. 


Today is 11.11.11, and yes, it's very even,


 and yes, such a date will never come round in our lifetime again, 


but honestly: no day comes round in our lifetime again, each day is special. 


And the very special thing about today is that it's Friday! Let's go and earn the day's blessing and not worry about numerology.

Listen With Your Heart

no worries..

really touched

my dearest son..birthday

To my dearest Ammar Shahmie on 061111..wish you a wonderful birthday and happy Eid Mubarak my love..I am so great to see you entering the next stage of your life ..and I pray that you will before making any decision big or small make a prayer to ask Allah for His guidance, help and blessings. I am here to love you and support you in your journey. I am told that a mother’s love has no comparison on earth, but that it comprises only one percent of the Love that Allah has for us. May you always feel the gentle cloak of His Love and Rahma on your shoulders along with mine.

Love and prayers for you always!

الحج والعمرة خطوة خطوة تعليم مناسك الحج والعمرة

Eid Mubarak

i've missed the moments i was there

had perform hajj two years back

i am missing praying in the most sacred mosque

labbaikallahumma labbaik

i am missing so much

so blessed and wonderful

Eid al -Mubarak to everyone

may Allah accept our du'a and our good deeds

and our sins been forgiven

ya ikhwati...

Di sana ku nampak saudara perempuanku,
× بحجابها يا إخوتي
dengan hijabnya, wahai saudara-saudaraku.
وأرى هناك أخيتي
Di sana ku nampak saudara perempuanku,
بحجابها يا إخوتي
dengan hijabnya, wahai saudara-saudaraku.
قولي لهم يا درتي: أبغي رضا الرحمن
Katakanlah kepada mereka wahai permataku: “Ku hanya mencari keredhaan Tuhan Yang Maha Merahmati.
إن الحجاب بشرعنا عتق من النيران
Sesungguhnya hijab yang menepati syariat kita adalah pembebas daripada api Neraka.”
يا أختنا! أنت العفيفة المصونة بالحجاب
Wahai saudariku! Engkaulah perempuan yang benar-benar menjaga kehormatan dan terpelihara dengan memakai hijab.
يا أختنا! فيك النزاهة والعفافة والثواب
Wahai saudariku! Pada dirimu (dengan memakai hijab) terdapat kesucian, penjagaan kehormatan dan pahala yang besar.
يا أختنا! هم ساخطون بغيهم مثل الكلاب
Wahai saudariku! (Lantaran kau memakai hijab), mereka marah kepadamu seperti anjing dengan sebab kesesatan mereka.
فالنار مثوى الظالمين لهم عقاب
Oleh itu, Neraka yang merupakan tempat tinggal orang-orang yang zalim akan menjadi balasan buruk mereka.
والله يكشف ظلمهم يوم الحساب
Allah pula akan membongkar kezaliman mereka pada Hari Perhitungan.
والجنة المأوى ويا حسن المآب
Syurga ialah tempat tinggal yang hakiki. Oh, alangkah indahnya tempat kembali itu.
يا أختنا! صبرا تذوب بسحره كل الصعاب
Wahai saudari! Sabarlah dengan sebenar-benar kesabaran yang dengan sihirnya semua kesusahan dan rintangan akan mencair.
يا أختنا! هذا نباح لا يؤثر في السحاب
Wahai saudari! (Tentangan mereka) ini hanyalah seumpama salakan anjing yang tidak akan meninggalkan apa-apa kesan pada awan.
يا أختنا! هذا عواء الحاقدين من الذئاب
Wahai saudari! (Tentangan mereka) ini hanyalah seumpama salakan serigala-serigala yang berdendam.
يا نفس كفي عن العصيان واكتسبي
Wahai diriku! Berhentilah daripada melakukan maksiat, dan lakukanlah bersungguh-sungguh,
فعلا جميلا لعل الله يرحمني
perbuatan yang baik, semoga Allah merahmatiku.

my diary..let it go

 Manusia akan MENGHARGAI sesuatu apabila dia telah KEHILANGAN sesuatu..

bagi diriku, biarkan cinta itu pergi..

CINTA SEJATI pasti akan kembali..

kerana Allah telah menjanjikan jodoh hati bagi setiap hambaNya..

Dua of Dr. Amr Khaled..
I am the child whom you raised, so all praise be to you… I am the weak whom you strengthened, so all praise be to you… I am the poor whom you made wealthy, so all praise be to you… I am the ignorant whom you taught, so all praise be to you… I am the sick whom you healed, so all praise be to you… I am the sinner whom you did not expose, so all praise be to you… I'm the oblivious whom you alerted, so all praise be to you… And all praise be to you, our Lord, for reminding and allowing us to thank you…"

my diary..dont let the fear

‎"Don't let the fear of the time it will take to accomplish something stand in the way of your doing it. 

The time will pass anyway; we might just as well put that passing time to the best possible use."

 ~Earl Nightingale

That's The Way It Is

love her..

"Love her …when she sips on your coffee or tea.... She only wants to make sure it tastes just right for you.
Love her…when she "pushes" you to pray. She wants to be with you in Jannah (Paradise).
Love her…when she asks you to play with the kids. She did not "make" them on her own....
Love her...when she is jealous. Out of all the men she can have, she chose you
Love her…when she has annoying little habits that drives you nuts. You have them too.
Love her…when her cooking is bad. She tries.
Love her…when she looks dishevelled in the morning. She always grooms herself up again.
Love her…when she asks to help with the kids homework. She only wants you to be part of the home.
Love her...when she asks if she looks fat. Your opinion counts, so tell her she's beautiful.
Love her…when she looks beautiful. She's yours so appreciate her.
Love her...when she spends hours to get ready. She only wants to look her best for you.
Love her…when she buys you gifts you don't like. Smile and tell her it's what you've always wanted.
Love her…when she has developed a bad habit. You have many more and with wisdom and politeness you have all the time to help her change. Love her…when she cries for absolutely nothing. Don't ask, tell her its going to be okay
Love her…when she suffers from PMS. Buy chocolate, rub her feet and back and just chat to her (trust me this works!)
Love her…when whatever you do is not pleasing. It happens and will pass
Love her…when she stains your clothes. You needed a new anyway
Love her…when she tells you how to drive. She only wants you to be safe.
Love her…when she argues. She only wants to make things right for both
Love her…she is yours. You don't need any other special reason!!!!
All this forms part of a Woman's Character. Women are part of your life and should be treated as the Queen.
The Messenger of Allah (peace be upon him) advised concerning the woman:

• Treat the women well.
• The best of you are those who are the best in the treatment of their wives."

 

By: Stunning Hijabs

my diary..be firm

…sometimes, when you give up on someone, it’s not because you don’t care anymore, but rather because you realize they don’t.

…something very simple, but yet so profound: Whosoever does good must know that it is from Allah (Azza-wa-jall) and it is only He who allowed him to do so; and whosoever is protected from evil, must know that it is Allah who protected him and there is no one else who can do so.

…at all times, be firm in your heart. Ibn Ata’illah stated:
“Relieve yourself of worry after you have planned; do not concern yourself with what Allah has undertaken on your behalf.”

hirisan kata..

my dearest friend passed on this poem to me..really touched ..

Tajamnya kata-kata

ibarat sebilah pisau
menghiris luka
tersayat pedih
menitik air mata
ke
p
i
p
i
jatuh jadi kerikil
di
h
a
t
i

I need Your help..

will never say..

      sometimes
  the person who tries to keep everyone happy
is always the most lonely person
    so, never leave them alone
because they will never say that they need you 

kematian itu pasti..

Tiap-tiap yang berjiwa akan merasakan mati. Dan sesungguhnya pada hari kiamat sajalah disempurnakan pahalamu. Barang siapa dijauhkan dari neraka dan dimasukkan ke dalam surga, maka sungguh ia telah beruntung. Kehidupan dunia itu tidak lain hanyalah kesenangan yang memperdayakan."[Ali Imran ayat 185]

indeed...

sitting alone on the white floor..

facing You..my Lord..

my tears running felt never stop..

asking forgiveness and all mistakes against me..

with a sincere heart inside me..

My Most Merciful..

Leburkanlah dosa-dosaku dgn titisan air mata taubatku

Hembuskan segala kesilapan mereka terhadapku dgn keikhlasan angin kemaafan.. 

Siramilah benih2 semangat dalam jiwaku dengan air kesungguhan & bergantung harap hanya kpdMu.. 

Sapulah air mata kesedihan & kekecewaanku dgn hamparan keredhaan & pasrah kpdMu.. 

Sematkanlah kedalam hatiku dgn mutiara keyakinan hanya kpdMu

Serahkanlah diriku sepenuhnya kpd Pemilik jiwaku yg sebenar iaitu Engkau Ya Allah~

free to choose..

We are all free to choose, 
but we are not free from the consequences of our choices.

I'll be there for you

my diary..i'm a lady

Sue Katona said:
Yes, I'm a female. I push doors that clearly say PULL. I laugh harder when I try to explain why I'm laughing. I walk into a room and forget why I was there. I count on my fingers. I hide the pain from my loved ones. I say it is a long story, when it really is not, just to get out of having to tell it. I cry a lot more than you think I do. I care about people who don't care about me. I am strong because I have to be, not because I want to be. I listen to you, even when you don't listen to me. And a hug will always help. Yes, I'm a girl!!!!


indeed...
     i'm proud of my heart
             it's been played
                 stabbed
                        cheated
                  burned and broken
        but somehow
                         still works


never be ashamed of the scars that life has left you with
       a scar means the hurt is over
            ...the wounded is closed
                              ..and you survived
..scars remind us where we been
                 doesnt have to dictate where we are going